Saturday, July 14, 2012




Dad (Thoughts on Roshashana 2011)

When he had nothing to lose
He was a man among men
When the tears were streaming
And the family screaming
He grabbed his sister from the burning wind
And touched the souls of the ones around him
He felt guilty when the war broke- friends going there
Thought they were not thinking the best
‘Wondering if hes seeking a deferment from the Holocaust?’
He was caring for his sister
Struck with the polio knife

So in a sense, he was content,
To go to the death fields
Get rid of the guilt
Sailed to the Seas
Of the Philippines

He carried mortar but not the cement
And the sights that were there
He could never forget
That battlefield hell
But gained a certain focus
And understanding as well
That you can’t think of death
When its hand is near

On returning, he was sick 
Bitten with the malaria tick 
He recovered so fast it was truly amazing
Married, children and a home 
Grandchildren and many friends
He cared for them all as best as he could
Respected in our neighborhood

Some 69 years passed when he succumbed to a heart
That was strong on the outside
But inside couldn’t start
An organ gone crazy
Looking for peace




So what is his life to me?
As I go to the temple
To chant an ancient decree
Sitting with mourners
And standing with angels
As depression wanes and waxes
My thoughts are clearer with each day
He had his faults 
He had his moments
He’s at peace now with them all

Those last few months
Are clearer then years
He taught me humility in that little time
Taught me to cheer for the slightest rebound
To suffer pain but to be proud
To laugh when I could
And try to learn

He wasn’t religious
At least that’s what was said
But he was raised almost Orthodox
A strange bed 
He said he thought G-d
Was in Nature
Kind of hard to argue with that 

So the wind blows
Warm sometimes cold
We all grow old
A lesson to be learned?
Maybe not now
But my Dad
In my heart, he will remain
A towering force
Of an ethical man

And a smile
A healing smile
For all

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